Ten little fingers and ten little toes
A little round head and a cute button nose
An Apgar of 10, lungs sounding so strong
The first touch of your baby, you’ve waited so long
A heart filled with love, words just can’t explain
A life you’ve created, and worth all the pain
Milestones are plenty, first smile and first coo
Crawling already, 1st day of pre-school
Soccer star, princess, actress, a queen
Dances, dating, Sleepovers, the teens
Best friends and boyfriends, ex friends, and the mall
Behind the wheel practice, white knuckles for all
A grad, vast dreams, a limitless world
A stumble, new friends, a lost little girl
Pacing and wondering, worry filled nights
Phone calls, the hang-ups, anxiety, and fright
Searching, and hoping, finding, relief
Waking, they’re gone, hit rewind and repeat
Smiling, pretending, alone with the pain
Vigilant, hopeless, determined, and drained
Jail cell visits, hope and implore
Released, she’s gone, I can’t take much more
A hospital room, she’s so still, a close call
Dirty nails, body bruised, so thin, and so small
Preparing to mourn, praying, despair
A glimmer, a shred, is this real, do I dare?
Detox and rehab, meetings, 12 steps
I’m breathing, I’m sleeping, can’t wait for what’s next?
Clean, still sober, 3 years, future’s bright
A relapse, my happiness may exit, stage right
Deep breaths, lots of prayers, holding on to the hope
Of a child, clean and free, from addictions’ cruel hold